This is a very challenging blog to write, cause I am opening myself up to being very human, vulnerable, imperfect, and struggling to just BE with what is going on within me, and the world.. You might have noticed that since sometime in March, 2020, Life on Earth has changed drastically. This is the global planetary situation we are ALL in. Then there is the personal-individual situational life happenings each of us has to deal with.. some of this related to the global changes, some of our personal challenges surfacing now cause well..”IT IS JUST TIME” to move forward, learn our soul lessons, and surrender control of the ego self, so our Spiritual/Soul Self can evolve. For me, now, it is the health crisis I am in. I am facing the daunting task of stage 4, stage 5, renal failure.. (again).. started in March of 2020. Have been working with this at every angle-modality-on many spiritual, emotional, and psychological levels. The real question arises, not about what to do, or why this is happening, but Who am I as a Soul, and How do I want to live, be, connect, with my SPIRIT Self.. Yes, there has been all the human emotions bouncing off the walls for months now. Fear, anxiety, worry, doubt, compassion, forgiveness, more fear, living with the uncertainty of the outcome, the not knowing what next steps to take or where all this is leading. Do you relate to any of this in your own life? Has the global situation brought up deeply buried subconscious conditioning or behaviors that you need to take a deep and compassionate look at??
Well, we all have our personal stories, histories, challenges.. and opportunities to awaken, listen, change, transform, or re-invent ourself. The biggest challenge is being aware of the old stories that no longer serve us , and being willing and courageous enough to write a new story. Yes, we live in unprecedented times. Nothing like this has ever made such an impact on such a global scale. I see this happening on all levels, especially as to how the global has impacted the personal and individual need for us to shift into a higher vibration. This means diving deep into the subconscious, the hidden agendas, the addictions, the patterns.. we all have carried…….especially around being wounded, feeling like a victim, having self defeating attitudes/behaviors/thinking, feeling alone, lonely, separate from God, lacking in self-love, not feeling good enough, etc… Clearing the subconscious takes dedicated effort, persistence, patience, and faith–cause we know we are letting go the the false self.. and returning HOME to our DIVINE-GOD CENTERED TRUE SELF… meaning, we are finding our way back. or our way to connect in the here and now.. every moment.. with that which is whole, healthy, loving, joyous, and at peace with all of existence.
Moving forward? Yes, movement at the level of this denser heavier energy of Earth seems so slow. For me, sometimes I just want to get through this and NOT have to do the “work”,, the effort, take the responsibility to empower myself , and support myself, to realize I AM the one that needs to do the work and make the changes. and also, just surrender to what is each moment.. Life is just happening. Good to remember this, that I am not the victim of myself or the world,, and whatever transpires here, now, or whenever,, I, like all beings, am doing the best I know how each and every moment. there is no condemnation or need for self reproach here. IN fact, there is much need for self love, self compassion, being patient with oneself, honoring where one is at.. Each little minor step we take towards the LIGHT, makes a huge impact on our SOUL evolution. (even though we can not see it, or understand it at the 3D level here on Earth)… I have found that taking time for MEDITATION, SILENT LISTENING, ASKING FOR GUIDANCE AND INSIGHT (from our Higher Self, Angels, and Spiritual teachers, etc.), is all so.. so… so… beneficial to our awakening and healing…
If you are facing challenges in your life, and you have some major changes or shifts asking to be addressed.. I am with you.. I understand.. I have compassion for you.. I do not have all your answers.. You have the answers within you.. ALL your questions will be answered in time when you have the conviction, the knowing, the faith…. that all is well. and you are provided for, loved, and needed here.. and are here for a reason.. and your life HAS PURPOSE, MEANING , AND VALUE.. (AND KNOW.. IF YOU ARE READING THIS, YOUR LIFE HAS MEANING, PURPOSE, AND VALUE, AND YOU BELONG HERE)… Cause, I KNOW this, due to my current state of health and healing… and I feel strongly that there is a SOUL AWAKENING PURPOSE for whatever we are going through.. and in time.. (time being of Earthly dimension)… in time.. we will come to know the answers, solutions, healing for which we have chosen the conditions and challenges of our present experience….
PLEASE KNOW THERE IS BUT ONE LIFE. ONE SOURCE, ONE UNIFIED FIELD OR SOURCE OF LIMITLESS LOVE.. LIGHT.. AND HEALING ENERGY… AND YOU ARE THAT.. YOU ARE THE CONSCIOUSNESS, THE AWARENESS, THAT KNOWS ITSELF AS BEING AWARE.. YOU ARE THE DANCER.. THAT WHICH IS BEING “DANCED”… YOU ARE LIVING OUT OF THIS UNIFIED NON-LOCAL EVERYWHERE PRESENT LOVE…(living, some would say, in a DREAM.. the ILLUSION, or the Holographic projection of your own consciousness).. In this context, YOU are the divine Matrix, the magician, the miracle worker, the designer, the writer, of your own life story.. and at the same time.. your life story is being written THROUGH YOU.. BY THAT WHICH IS MUCH GREATER AND WISER,, AND LOVING. THAN YOU COULD POSSIBLY IMAGINE… SO,, BE BOLD ENOUGH TO IMAGINE AS THE CREATOR IMAGINES.. BE BOLD AND CONFIDENT, AND POWERFUL ENOUGH TO SEE, FEEL, AND BELIEVE, ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE.. YOU EXIST IN A FIELD OF LIMITLESS POTENTIALITY… where your health, relationships, sense of self worth, value, finances, work in the world,, can shift and heal in an INSTANT….I KNOW THIS IS TRUE FOR YOU.. DO YOU KNOW THIS IS TRUE FOR YOURSELF???
I bless and honor each of you on your path to self love, self healing. SOUL AWAKENING.. AND, spiritual development… NAMASTE.. AND LOVE TO YOU MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS….